I’m into Patti. There, everyone knows now. I’m totally and completely into Patti. I didn’t expect it to happen, but it did. We are total opposites and I don’t know if we’ll ever make it as a couple but I really want to try.

Thinking back to all the time I’ve spent with Patti and all the stuff I’ve seen her go through, I can’t believe we would ever be attracted to each other. I met her because she was obsessed with my best friend Oscar. They have their history and the thought of stepping, no stomping, on his toes is rather intimidating. I don’t want to be that guy who messes around with my friends ex. But, on the other had, we saw Oscar this week and I think he’s okay with it.

My future is around the corner. I’ve learned a lot from renegade, all things that have made me a better person, and a person that a smart girl like Patti could date. I finally know who I am and I’m proud to be me. I like emo, I like my independence, I like to write and I’m totally into Patti (have I mentioned that yet?).

School is over in a number of weeks and I barely know what to do next. I’m looking at my options and I’ve got some applications out (I know you barely believe it, I’ve kept it so secret). I want to do sound engineering and there’s a good program in town. With Patti in University and if I get in to this program I want, things could work themselves out.

I have learned to be patient too so I’m going to try and keep my cool with everything. I’ll let you know how that goes; assuming Crystal will let me near renegade now that she’s in charge.

Over and Out,